“I am the resurrection and the
life; whoever believes in me, even if he dies, will live.”
As I reflected on today’s Gospel story of the raising of Lazarus, my first thought was to
identify with poor Lazarus. How sick do I have to be to
get your attention, Lord? It’s like old Roy who was a bit of a
hypochondriac. He would complain and complain about being sick until
people got to ignoring him. When he finally did die, he had inscribed
on his tombstone: “See, I told you I was sick!”
Of course our powerful Gospel story is not
all that trivial. On the cosmic level, this is a story of God’s vision
or goal for all human persons - that we will never die but that we
should live in Go d’s presence forever. On the personal level, it is a
story about our trust in God to fulfill this goal. It even goes down to
the gut level - does God care about me? We get the answer through what
has become known as the shortest verse in the Bible - “Jesus wept,” Jn 11:35. That says it
all! Let’s see why.
First of all, we know Jesus as a male human being, fully
human, thus in a way one of the guys. Why do guys cry?
Women have the gift of being able to easily express their
emotions in tears, it is not repressed or suppressed in them. For
guys, though, we are taught from our childhood that big boys don’t cry. This may not be universal, it is somewhat
culturally conditioned, but most of us sitting here were raised that
way. The greatest taunt on the school playground is being called a
crybaby. But there are exceptions when
it’s OK for guys to cry if we don’t make a big scene about it by
blubbering on and on. Example: what movie
has made you cry? For me the most memorable one was made about 50 years
ago called Ol Yeller. It was about a big,
ugly but lovable, rogue dog, out on the frontier who muscled his way
into the love of a family. He wasn’t
wanted by the parents at first because he would cause all sorts of
mischief with the farm animals and tromp down the garden. Of course
there was a boy involved and he attached himself to that dog and the
dog to him, until the dog proved his value by protecting the family
from predators. In the course of doing just this, one day he was bitten
by an animal and eventually came down with rabies. Since he was now a
menace and he had to be put down. I don’t
care who you are, that scene will make you cry real tears.
Still, that story, like our Gospel story has a happy and
uplifting ending.
So why did Jesus cry in the Gospel story? Yes, Lazarus was his beloved friend and he
was dead. But Jesus knew that he would bring him
to life again - so why the tears - was he just playacting? Looking at
the text of the story again, we see that preceding Jesus’
weeping, some strong emotions were stirring inside him.
It says, “He became perturbed and deeply troubled.”
In the original language, Greek, these words mean that Jesus was
having some gut wrenching emotions and Jesus wept, meaning not sobbing
or wailing as was the usual mourning custom of the culture; but meaning
that his eyes overflowed with tears that streamed down his face.
Those gut wrenching emotions, where did they come from?
What was Jesus reacting to? Some say that Jesus was stung by all the unbelief
around him. He was stung by his closest
disciples remonstrating against him when he said he would go up to Judea. They
said in effect, “What! Are you crazy? You can’t go there, they were trying to kill
you just a short while ago. This time they may well accomplish it!” Even his beloved Martha and Mary challenged him instead of
greeting him when he finally came to them. “Lord,
if you had been here my brother would not have died.”
In their grief they were saying in effect, what good is it to
have you as a friend, to believe in you, when you don’t answer my need?
And after Jesus reacted to this with tears,
others in the crowd picked it up and threw it back on Jesus by the mocking statement,
“Could not the one who opened the eyes of the blind man have done
something so that this man would not have died?” Yes,
Jesus’ emotions could have come from
these frustrations about the inability of his closest friends to
understand.
But I think there is a deeper reason here.
In the only other two places in the New
Testament where Jesus sheds tears, it is in reaction
to what he sees in the future. In the
first case he weeps over Jerusalem (Lk 19:41) where he sees the destruction
of the holy city. In the second, it is at Gethsemane when he foresees his own trial
and death, becoming emotionally distraught. In
today’s Gospel, Jesus is affected by the absurdity
of death and the negative power it has on all of us. He reacts to the
tears of those around him and he foresees our own distress and our
tears in the face of death. So his tears
are in response to our tears; he does care for us deeply. That is why Jesus wept. It
is in this context that Jesus gives us the rest of the story
- he goes to his friend’s tomb and faces death directly, person to
person - and he wins. In this way he
connects the great cosmic truth of God’s plan for us, that we shall
live even if we die, to the personal truth that God cares for each and
every one of us.
It sometimes is very hard to wait for the
Lord. We all sometimes come to Mass wondering why we are here. Even when we are at our best, we put limits on
our trust in God. Yes, we say with our mouths, like Martha’s response to Jesus, that we believe, and we maybe
even convince our hearts that we believe deeply. But
then come those reservations welling up within us that disheartens us
as we remember some unmet expectations on God’s part. These unmet
expectations bring forth a residual anger, disappointment, and
resentment that eat away at trust. We
didn’t get what we wanted when we wanted it and that acts like a poison. If we choose to face these feelings alone,
then gradually our relationship with God will be destroyed - which will
then destroy us. The antidote to this
poison is our gathering together as we are now, in the presence of our
beloved Lord. We gain strength as we
participate in Communion with him and with one another.
In this way, Jesus’ tears are tears of healing as
we experience his care for us.